Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in NoForkRequired's LiveJournal:

Saturday, February 23rd, 2008
2:04 am	Journal Like A Rock Star... So yeah, another weekend at EIU. What exciting times...so we're just fucking...partying. But I didn't want to make anybody uncomfortable. But yeah, I quit at this real life thing. I want some amazing wet chester dreams...what an amazing tease. But I love it! I can't wait to see the show online with this digital package thing. I can't believe how much I was getting molested at the Detroit show. "Oops, sorry I didn't mean to." Fuck you dude!! You totally meant it, and you have probably done that to so many other people. So that poem, I don't even know where that came from. That was the one that I was sitting in class and I just started getting lines in my head and eventually just doodled it down. So that's what I got. What are you thoughts? You're really going to write it down? I didn't think it was that amazing. I still haven't even understood it all in my head yet. It makes sense...but then I'm still putting it together. But whatever, we're all geniuses and shit. You know...it's what we do! Gah? That's awesome, never really heard it before, but I definitely know what you're saying. I got it! I can't wait to come home soon. It's gonna be so funny cause I'll just be waiting at home until like 5:30 or so until you get home, and then it's Kat Time. But yeah, somebody had posted on youtube for LP that they had it dated for February of this year, but it was posted at Minutes to Midinight Tour...and I so feel like finding out their e-mail address and being like...'fuck you dude, this is not their Minutes tour, go die!' So yeah, not quite sure who they were trying to fool with that. But, a lot of people put up videos from Columbus and Detroit, but none of them are very amazing. This pressure is creating so much stress for marrying a musician, but I have to do it. I have to. No if, and's, or but's about it. But other than that, it's 2:14 am, and I have to finish entertaining. I just had the urge so write some, and ramble a lot a lot!! So yeah, I may write more again before you do when I'm completely sober. So yeah, I LOVE YOU!! Forever and ever amen... Current Mood: amused Current Music: whatever shitty movie is on the tv (Comment on this)
Friday, February 22nd, 2008
1:47 pm	So, I'm posting from work. We're super slow and there really isn't anything to do. That was a great post, bytheway. I'm so ready to give up real life and become a groupie too. And I CAN NOT stop thinking about the weekend. I'm still having dreams about it - yeah, it was just that incredible. This whole week at work has been a complete haze. I just can't get it out of my head ... or him. ... ... ... Dude, don't forget that I ordered the digital souvenir package. I'm actually downloading it when I get home today. That means that we have a copy of any US show. I'm thinking Detroit because of A Place For My Head, but those are just my thoughts. You need to let me know yours. Well, I have to get going. You are my favourite - really. And us missing the end of the show is NOT YOUR FAULT. I promise. I blame Holiday Inn one hundred percent. Well, and those asshole guys behind us. But not you!! And that poem is a piece of amazing talent. I think I'm going to write it down somewhere. I less than three you a ton!! -K Current Mood: Blissful Current Music: NOTHING! GAH! (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 21st, 2008
10:47 pm	It's been way too long... So, for some reason this website crossed my mind after so long, and I decided to post a new entry. This gets me excited for some reason. It's kinda fun to have something to check...plus with me being away it's hard to pass our notebook back and forth, so this is pretty much our online version. I had so much fun this past weekend...I wish it could've never ended. I still feel bad that you missed your song, no matter what you say, I should've been smart enough to eat something before the show. But, I'm sure we will eventually get to see it...I can feel it! I still can't believe that you got eye-fucked by Chester, and I got to shake his hand. How is it that either one of us has a musician in our lives?? How did that happen?! I have to marry a musician...for both of us! I have to, it's not an option anymore. So here I am, it's definitely almost been a week since our adventure, and our Alaska trekking. I don't like real life anymore. We should just drop out of real life and become groupies. My life feels so boring and uneventful now. Kinda sucks. But anyway, I just figured we would try and start this again...I think it will catch on eventually, hopefully. And I am, Like a stone crumbling under the world's pressure, Like a dying flower Starved to death, Like an imperfect painting, smeared by the untrusting artist. And I am, eroding. Current Mood: dorky (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 5th, 2007
7:49 pm	Continue the cycle... So, I figured that I had to post something so we wouldn't just forget about this forever. Today I had an unfortunate realization and acceptance that I'm never going to have that kind of relationship with my parents. The kind that you can run to them for advice whenever you have a problem, or how people say that you will always have family after everything else has left you. I'm not sure if I would even want my family to be the last people. I have a much closer connection with you than I could possibly ever have with any member of my family. But when I start my own family, I definitely want my kids to feel like that. I guess it's just too late now for my parents or brothers to try and start that with me, and plus I just have to much against all of them. The song "Because Of You" by Kelly Clarkson (yeah I know...) reminds me of what my parents and family has done to me. Kinda sucks, but what can I do now? This whole thing with Jennie has been making me think too. It's like the first real true friendship that I feel like I've thrown away in a way. Of course it's her fault, but I feel so bad that she got involved in all that crap. I feel like...I'm supposed to be the one person that she can count on no matter what, and I should be able to help her out of this. I guess that part of my life is just over. I deserve better friends than that. I'm so glad I have you though. I would...I don't even know where I would be right now if I didn't. I'm not even sure I would be here (on earth). Especially, now with all this MJ going on, and me being away at school, and just everything mixed together. Thank you! Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 16th, 2006
8:32 pm	blah blah blah blah blah... ohmygod, it's been like 2 weeks, but... where are you??? i'm bored - i need my chis!! haha. okay, but for serious. i don't want to change the subject or anything, but mark hasn't sent me an email back; maybe i was too mean... but, it's been 3 months today. so, really, enough is enough... right? i dunno, but i just got a nasty ass look... i guess we'll talk more when you get here... hopefully sometime tonight.. ^_^ love you lots and lots and mucho and mucho!!! -k Current Mood: chipper Current Music: chevelle - panic prone (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 6th, 2006
4:11 pm	What would I do without you...?!!!! We really do keep eachother sane, don't we? I know you say it comes with the territory and everything, but I just feel like I shouldn't be putting all my problems on you. It's just so frustrating being away at school; away from everything I know, and feeling like I have no control over things. But, I guess if it's supposed to happen, it'll happen. Right? You're gonna love the journal when you get it back...I'm such a sappy loser sometimes ;)It's alright though, you'll probably appreciate it. 4 days left of school!! I don't have any finals tuesday, so that doesn't count. But, seriously, freakin awesome! I'll be home for 3 weeks...finally a break from...things *cough cough*. McDonald's here I come!! How the hell did we manage to stop being friends. Stupid hindsight...oh well, the past is in the past. I really hope that I don't have to open a bunch of days at work...well actually then I'd be done by like 2-ish. I don't know, we'll see. I can't wait to see you again, baby! I can't wait to lay next to you...singing the beautiful sound of a retarded ambulance... Current Mood: stressed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 5th, 2006
11:59 pm	but you haven't You haven't lost that. I know it's tough with him being gone for so long, and I know it seems like the entire world is completely against you guys. But, in the long run, it doesn't matter what the world thinks; if you love him and want to be with him, then fuck 'em all! I mean, what's the point in living if you can't be with who you want? Obviously easier said than done, I know, but in the long run, you'll be happier. And ultimately, that's what really matters. And as for me, you know I'll support you with whatever and whomever you choose. -K Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 3rd, 2006
10:07 pm	I'm sorry these are so down... I apoligize for these entires being so depressing and everything...but you know us writers. Always writing with passion, and during rough times. Sometimes I just wonder if this is all even worth it. It's just like I keep putting everything I have into our relationship, and it's just...nothing. I don't get anything. I know that it's not easy for you guys either, but never take for granted that you guys can come home to eachother everynight, you're both a phone call away, and you have a beautful son together. Things may not be easy, but you still have eachother. I feel like I've lost that. Current Mood: frustrated (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 30th, 2006
2:52 pm	"by myself"? nope, never I think that everytime we go through something that's really hard, and really horrible, it's a test - a test from the guy upstairs. And everytime we come back from that horrible time, we've succeeded, and become stronger because of it. I know it's a totally overused phrase, but "What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger." After highschool, and everything that I went through, I completely and fully believe in that statement. Life is an adventure, but sometimes that adventure takes an unexpected or unwanted turn, and the only thing that you can do is continue on until you find yourself on even ground. But, that doesn't mean that you have to do it by yourself. I know you feel completely cut off from everything, and entirely alone... "i've never been quite so alone but so surrounded by people. does that make me crazy - or just insane...?" The truth, though? You'll never have to get through it by yourself. I'm always here, and even though I can't be there in the physical sense, I'll do everything I can from where I am. -k Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: narnia lullaby (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 29th, 2006
11:19 pm	not so good mood... So, definitely in one of those 'can't feel more alone' moods, and I thought letting it out would help a lil. It's just so hard being at school. I feel like I have nobody here. You're seriously the only person I feel that is there for me anytime I need, and actually cares about me, and if I'm ok or not. I mean here, I have nobody...nobody to talk to, nobody to give me a hug, nobody to cry to...just loneliness. Sometimes I feel like coming here was such a mistake. Look what happened...I lost everybody. I don't know what to do anymore. Sometimes I just feel like I have no control over my own life. I kind of blame that on my parents. They never understood that I needed to experience things on my own to actually understand them myself. But no, they have to keep me on a freakin leash. Does it really matter what we do in life? If we all die in the end, does it really matter? Or do we just find things to keep busy until that time comes? It's funny how people always say to live life as if you were going to die tomorrow...but then when people do, they look at you funny. But if I were to die tomorrow, I sure as hell wouldn't be in school, and I sure as hell wouldn't be alone. It's just hard to understand why God puts people through so much pain :"It's scary to feel like this so much pain, so much loneliness.." Current Mood: numb Current Music: mp3 player (Comment on this)
4:40 pm	and MY other half... [posted as Kat] Chis, you're amazing. If we were lesbians, I think we would be life partners. haha. I feel so special! Anyway, I got all your messages/ims about all that fun stuff that's going on right now, and I'm going to try to call you later tonight, ya know, when it's not prime time and soaking up my minutes... ^_^ But, I totally redid my profile on, ohmygod, myspace. Took me forever too. Well, I know this is super short, but I really don't have a bunch to say right now. Except, 15ish days till you come home!!! Yeah, bitch! haha. love you lots, li'l sis. ~_^ Current Mood: chipper Current Music: Marilyn Manson - Man That You Fear (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 27th, 2006
10:09 pm	Part of a paper I wrote for soc...enjoy Another person that has made my life incredibly easier is my best friend Kat. I really feel that she is my other half; my long lost sister. I have no idea what I would do if I had never met her. I have never been able to be so connected to a person, but Kat. She understands me, listens to me, gives me advice when I need it, and is always there for me. She really is the epitome of a great friend. She’ll tell me when I’m wrong, she’ll be on my side in a fight, give me a hug when I’m crying, and tell a laugh when I need my spirit lifted. She has shaped me in, I believe, an extremely important way emotionally. She has helped me to find a certain trust in people to be able to really talk to them. She doesn’t judge me, as well as I don’t judge her. She is the one person that I can tell anything to, and feel comfortable doing it. Kat has taught me to not be judgmental towards other people, and that there is much more to a person than just what you see. You never know what a person has been through, so be careful what you say to them. Current Mood: thankful (Comment on this)